Tuesday, February 13, 2007

Rest in Peace Michael Cayce Lindner 1968-2007

What I remember most is how much you made me laugh.
I remember the first time I met you and Chela and I felt so warm around you both, you gave me an image of a relationship to aspire to.
I remember you imitating Tim from Project Runway and making me laugh so hard.
I remember what a strong, caring father you were to Django and Taj.
I remember the love you showed for your family by your childlike enthusiasm for giving.
I remember the first time I saw you and Pascal together and I thought you had been friends for a million years but you had only known each other a little while.
I remember you sitting in the backyard with me in Oakland in September and telling me how you used to think that you were a loser and not as cool as the people that you liked and I remember thinking, “But they probably think they’re not as cool as you.”
The last thing I remember is the hug you gave me when I woke up on your couch the day after Christmas. We sat and talked for a little while and I remember thinking that I wished that I knew you better and that I was so glad to be a part of the circle that you and Chela have created.
I remember how many times Dmitra and I would say “Cayce is SO cool! Man, I love that guy!” Now I can only wish that we said it to you. Why didn’t I ever say it to you?
I worried about you sometimes, I knew that a darkness could grip you at times and that you were fighting it, fighting the darkness that made you feel like you weren’t good enough. I wish you knew, I wish you could see how good we all knew you were.


Blogger Jonah said...

Oh, Cayce. I miss him terribly. Thanks for writing that down.

April 2, 2009 6:34 PM  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

i'd really like to know more about him. i got the flying lotus cd recently, and my god it is beautiful. i hope he is okay, wherever he is.

May 11, 2009 4:28 AM  

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